Tag 158: Abdicating Responsibility - Self-Commitments

I commit myself to find and eradicate every pattern such as blame in which I abdicate responablity for myself - I take back my responsabilty and live behaviour that is based in practical common sense in alignment with what is best for all

I commit myself to whenever the thoughts of “I will not make it – I am not able to do it on my own” come up and exist in my mind delete them as the justifications/excuses they are to not face me as my creation as the mind – I stop justifying giving up in considering breath as life

I stop allowing myself to abusing myself as life in using others as psycological crutches to divert responability to – I stop and delete the believe that this is in any way possible – I realize the idea that I could divert the responsibility for myself as life is always Self-Deception

When and as the thought of “I will not make it” comes up in my mind – I stop and breathe – I realize that in accepting this though within me I am giving up before I have even begun and going into an whining mode where I make myself believe that there “is something to achieve that i can not have/be/fullfill” which is not what life is about and not what I will accept and allow within myself – I breath here, walking myself out of the mind one step at a time, one breath at in every moment of every breath

When and as facing my mind – I remind myself that the phyiscal world that is really here do know nothing of “the things I am going through” – which is the common sense prove the “the things I am going through in my Mind are Illusions

I commit myself to realize and make myself aware of that “the things I go through” as Experience are in fact my creation and in this based in self-sabotage and self-manipulation to try and justify why I can not change, why I do not change – I assist and support myself in not allowing myself to take bullshit from my mind and simply accept experiances/emotions/feelings as valid just because they come up in my mind

When and as I see the thought of “I am not able to make it on my own” comes up in my mind – I stop and breathe – I realize and see that in this thought I am completely manipulating myself to justify giving up on myself and giving into self-interest – i realize that in that actually this is a fear-sentence that reveales my self-interst to OWN something which is the Greed which i allow in accepting giving up on myself and allowing the thought as me – thus I take a breath, delete the thought and walk moment for moment, breath by breath

I see/realize/understand that I have created the “things that I go through” by in the first place accepting the thought/believe/definition of “I am not able to make it on my own” as me, wherein I have given the mind as relationships power over and directive principle of me for consciousness to create itself

Tag 157: Abdicating Responsibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make it a pattern in my life to abdicate the responsibility and abiltiy to direct myself outside of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am unable to direct myself instead of seeing/realinzing that I am living the exact same pattern that I have copied 

from my mother as the believe that I “will not make it – I am not able to do it on my own”

I this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see/realize/understand that other beings/people can always ever be a (pyschological) chrutch or patch but in fact its always me and me alone that is responsible for my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the backchat of “I will not make” It to come up 

within my mind when faced with myself or situations that I have to go/work through alone and in this sabotaging myself from the beginning, before I even started to take on what in fact is my responsibility  – in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the situations that “I have to go through” is me as my creation as what I have created my life to be thus It is basically to firstly change my perspective from “things happening to me – Things that I have to go through” and realizing that what I am experiancing is all my creation, not meaning that I do “completely create the world alone” but my experience of myself and the life-path/experiances/situations is my co-creations and thus my responsabiltity

I forgive myself that I have I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that there are actually separate Things/Experiances that I have to go through, like floating towards me – instead of seeing/realizing that the phyisical world walk through or stand in when I go through internal Experiances is and remains always the same, stable and does know nothing of “the things that I go through”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in the thought “iam not gonna make it” I have already created a complete illusion as a experience that I apparently “go through” when actually it as me as a creation of me comes up in and as my mind so what I am going through is in fact my self-created Mind that I then use/abuset to further give away my directive principle and responsibility to the mind in the form of creating/ relationships to people/things that I relay on to tell me what to do/how/who to be – in this further validating the conditioned relationships of dependency – instead of in the first place seeing/realizing/understanding that the “things I go through” is selfmanipulation in and as the mind and then actually taking reponsablity to direct myself to face and walk out of the self-Creation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowd the Backchat of “I am not able to make it on my own” to come up and exist within my mind where in give away my ability to respond and face whatever comes up as my self-creations as the mind that I call the things that I have to go through – but sentence myself to believe that I need someone/something outside of myself to “help/support me face myself/mind as my own creations” when in fact no one can help me walk/face my mind as it is my illusion, not anyone eslses – wherin what I am actually saying is “I have already given up on myself – and into the mind for it to have me”

I forgive myslef that I have never allowed myself to consider that have created the “things that I have to go through” sole beacause my having given away the ability to direct myself in self-responsabilty as Life to the Mind in the statement/believe of “I am not able to make it on my own”

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see/realize and consider that the victimzation, dependency, emotional reactions, blame, supressions, Depressions, Personalities, Characters, Ego are all Self-creations from that stem from the creation-process of relationships and that the Relationship-creation-processes is the fundamental to giving away the power to the mind, or back then to a relationship-system that was developed into the mind