I
forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the Backchat of „Fuck
this, hrrgh, fucking shit“ to come up and exist within my mind when
i am faced with a failure or something not working the way i wanted
or planed it with the Backchat being accompanied with and attached to
a energetic experiance of Anger, Frustration and Irritation.
I
forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect a
energetic experiance of Angst, Frustration and Irritation to the
backchat of „Fuck this, hrrgh, fucking shit“.
I
forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to see, realize or
understand that this Backchat is in fact a Programm of Giving Up (on
myself) and then justifying it through projecting Blame towards
whatever „was not working out“ or „a failure“ accoring to my
Judgement/imagination.
I
see, realize and understand that in abusing myself and physical
reality within projecting blame and anger i do not support anything
or anyone – all that i do is accumulating the Mind and in this
creating Limitation and further consequence for myself.
I
see, realize and understand that the solution for Moments/Situation
where something goes wrong/doesnt work out is to simple check what
was the cause, why did what i imagined/wanted not equate in physical
reality – where in this i also check my starting-point – and if it
is something vaild and worthwhile, i simply do it again within
considering and correcting the source/orgin of failure/not working
out – For this i do not need energy and thus i commit myself to
When
and as the Backchat of „Fuck this, hrrgh, fucking shit“
accompanied with an energetic experiance of Anger, Frustration,
Impatience and Irritation comes up in my mind – i stop and breathe
– i do not allow myself to participate in this self-sabotage,
accumulating further limitation/consequence but rather assist and
support myself in doing again what did not work out or where i failed
within considering and correcting the cause/origin of the failure and
so assist and support myself to learn.
I
forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the Backchat of
„Fucking shit“ to come up and exist within my mind, which is
basically a short form of the self-sabotage above, where i blame
„something" for not working as i wanted, going wrong accoding to my
judgement or failing, and in this justify giving up, whitout giving
myself the opportuity to look into and find out what it actually was,
that caused the failure.
I
see, realize and understand that another dimension to consider within
this is me deliberatly not wanting to face „my failure/s“ so that
i can continue with them/it, as there is a particular Self-interest
included and so it is convenient to just blame „something“ to
justify accepting myself doing the same over and over again.
I
see that i derive a Sense of power and superiority from blaming and
and for example saying „Fucking shit“.
When
and as i see that that i project blame in the Backchat „Fucking
shit“ to make myself feel superior in my Mind – I stop and
breathe – I realize that actually, in that moment of blame, i am
disempowering myself and giving up on myself and a moment that i
could have utilized to learn and expand my skills or ability in
whattever i am/was doing – Thus i commit myself to take a breath,
delete the Backchat and give myself a moment to Look at the
situation/moment again, clear, stable and in Commen Sense how i can
support myself to enhance my application and then walk the practical
Correction.
"I hate this shit"
I
forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the Backchat of „I
hate this shit“ to come up and exist when faced with specific
things or tasks that i do not like or not particularly want to do,
apparently as i see that in fact it is more that i project „hate“
because i do not feel „confident“ or „good enough“ to do it,
„It went all wrong in the past, so many times“ and thus „i hate
it“, wherein i am actually saying that „I fear this“ things or
task but this i would not want to admit because it would make me
feel/look like a loser.
I
forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think and
believe taht „Hate“ is Cooler than „Fear“ and thus created
from the Failure-Charakter and the fear of failure within it a
branche as the „I hate it“-Charakter as an „new
self-definition“ of „My Failure“ Perception.
I
see, realize and understand that Hate is not cooler than Fear and in
fact projecting hate to apparently protect me from failure is pretty
stupid as then i will not face and learn from my failures, but try to
separate myself from the Perception of Failure.
I
see, realize and understand that in Hate i conserve the Perception of
Failure and make the statement that it – a perception – has power
over me and who i am.
Thus
i commit myself to not allow the Perception of failure in my mind to
control, determine or have power over „who i am“.
When
and as i see the Backchat of „I hate this shit“ come up in my
mind – i take a breath, stop the blame and taking responsiblity for
what i apparently hate, giving myself the confidence and trust to do
it.
„I
will never get this“
I
forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have the
Backchat of „I/You will never get this“ come up and exist within
an whiny voice, wherein i give up on a point/myself before i even
started and condem myself to „eternal failure“, including the the
word „never“ and so including a Lie as never is to a long time
for the sentence to be practically real – and so what i do here
with the this Backchat, is making Life unneccesarily harder vor
myself.
I
see, realize and understand taht the Backchat that „I/You will
never get this“ is a lie and if/as i push myself to try again and
put in the necessary work, i will, dependent on the Point sooner or
later „get it“ - Thus
I
see, realize and understand that this is more a generalised
Self-sabotage-construct to allow giving up and accept Limitation.
Thus
– When and as i face the Backchat „I/You will never get this“
come up or exist within my mind – I take a breath and assist and
support myself in not listening to Mind, giving in or giving up and
so in this accepting limitation/struggles, but rather move myself in
awareness physically here, where the question of giving up/giving in
doesn´t exist as what exists is me as Self-movment pushing through
any resistance or doubt in breath.
I
commit myself to stop whining, when and as i see it within and as me
in realising that there is no Choice but to move and whining dosn´t
support me in this.
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